I feel like I’m about to burst into tears at work and I’m not even sure why.
I feel sad and alone and like I’m missing someone. I don’t even know who. Can you miss someone you’ve never met? I feel frustrated and tired.
Then I read my horoscope and it said “today you might fall in love.” Today! I’m not sure if I’m ready for that today. I feel like a mess. Can he love me when I’m a mess. I guess that’s when I want to be loved the most. Can someone really do that? And do they want to? Love me through all of my shit? When I don’t even know why I’m sad/upset?
I’m upset too because I wish I could just cry and not have to stop myself all the time because I’m in public and that’s weird and don’t want to make people uncomfortable. I think I’ve been holding so much in that it’s starting to come out whenever and however it wants. Just breaking through! I wish it was normal to show emotion and get community support. Suffering alone in silence is so much harder.