i’m in love

…with myself!

This time I’m crying in the library instead of Whole Foods, but they are the happiest tears I’ve ever felt. Yesterday I had another Raven vision of my life, and all the drama that’s happening, and I was like omg… it doesn’t matter! And none of it can take away from how fucking awesome I am!!

No matter what other people may say, positive or negative, I love myself. I love who I am. I love my journey. I love everything about me.

A few weeks ago I wrote about how I can feel the magic in the air this year and that 2018 is the year of love, but sitting here, I realized that while I would absolutely LOVE to meet someone to share my life with… I’m already in love, with ME! So finding someone else is going to be icing on the cake.

We are each all so much more powerful and resilient than we acknowledge or give ourselves credit for. We’ve all made it through some shit! And when we can finally take a step back and give ourselves credit for all of our hard work, that’s when we can really step into our power.

Our power lies in our connection to every single other person. None of us are alone, no matter how lonely and isolated we feel. Even when we feel like we have been taken so low that we’ll never be able to get up… remember, my love, that you have the strength to overcome anything.

And maybe the trick lies in being present. Not judging anything as good or bad, but marveling that we are able to have the experience at all. The darkest times of my life have taught me to appreciate every. single. breath.

One day we won’t be here anymore. We won’t be able to feel the rush of breath in our chest, the touch of someone we cherish, or even the pain of being human. And to me, that is the most profound reason I’ve found to enjoy life. Beause even when things feel fixed and like they will never change or get better… they always do. NOTHING is forever.

So I’m recommitting to enjoying every last moment I have. Being in love with myself, with my life, with everyone around me. Because I don’t know how I lucked out to be born on this beautiful world (I mean statically what are the chances?!) and live the life that I am here to live, but I plan on living it to the fullest!

Conquering all of my fears. Jumping off every cliff of uncertainty I can find. Until one day it’s time to step through the doorway into whatever is in store for me next.

We are all in this together, so let’s create a world of LOVE 🙂

letting go. 

I don’t know if it’s my period or what, but these last few days have been r o u g h. It seems like everyone I would rather not see from the past is popping up to test me. To make sure I’ve learned the lessons I was supposed to through our relationships. And I don’t think I’ve passed. 

Well, maybe I have. Even though I reacted in less than admirable ways to these obstacles, I’m proud to say that I’ve done better than I would’ve even a few months ago. And maybe that’s the most important thing. 

I consider myself pretty good at cutting things out of my life that don’t fit, but these past few weeks have shown me just how much baggage I’m still holding onto. I had no clue! 

But it’s time to let go. I’m letting go of all the beliefs, relationships, and whatever else that no longer serve me. The thing I’m realizing about life is that you never stop growing and learning. You might get a short break,but then it’s back at it again. And it’s way harder to keep moving forward while dragging all this old baggage behind you. 

So goodbye. 

Clearing out the past makes so much more room for the present and all of the things I have been calling into existence.